Total Madness

Help me I wanna faint,

I just can't take it anymore.

Everything I've worked for had already gone,

and I don't know where to go.

I barely know where to start and

I don't know where my feet leads me

All I feel is the fume of madness inside me

I can't walk , I can't move

Im just standing here so alone

Trying to reach to that someone

who wears blank face and nonchalant stare

I scarcely know if he's deaf; i hardly pick if he's blind

All i just feel is i'm swathed of fright

I'm shattering into pieces

Chilling in cold, aching in pain

Help me, Help me

my head is in total madness.

I'm wrenching in agony

my eyes' full of fear

what will happen now, what will i do next

all in my troubled ears looping like a sphere.

My mind is in lunacy

I'm wandering in nowhere,

maybe in the midst of darkness

help me, help me, i'm losing it

my maddening life is eating me.

Paano ba to'?

nahihirapan na ako.. still strugling..i want to reach my goals pero bakit ang hirap hirap, hindi ko na alam ang dapat kong gawin...i'm getting paranoid with each passing day.

i am so disappointed with what's happening in my life now, it's just getting hard and hard and i don't know where and how would i start building myself again, i just lost it, it feels like i'm just not good enough, and most of all it feels like im stuck with it.

what do i need to do, what would i need to do to get out of here, when can i be right on track again.

Brayden Ashton Valdez

You entered: Brayden Ashton Valdez

There are 19 letters in your name.
Those 19 letters total to 81
There are 6 vowels and 13 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:

Irish	Male	Broad hillside.
English	Male	Broad hillside.

Your number is: 9

The characteristics of #9 are: Humanitarian, giving nature, selflessness, obligations, creative expression.

The expression or destiny for #9:
The expression that you exhibit is represented bythe number 9. Your talents center in humanistic interests and approaches. You like to help others as you were intended to be the 'big brother or big sister' type. You operate best when you follow your feelings and sense of compassion, and allow yourself to be sensitive to the needs of others. You work well with people, and have the potential to inspire. This suggests that you could successfully teach or counsel. Creative ability, imagination and artistic talent (often latent) of the highest order are present in this expression. It's possible that you're not using or developing all of these capabilities at this time. Some of your talents may have been used at an earlier time in your life, and some may still be latent. Be aware of your capabilities, so that you can make use of them at appropriate times.

If you are able to achieve the potential of your natural expression in this life, you are capable of much human understanding and have a lot to give to others. Your personal ambitions are likely to be maintained in a very positive perspective, never losing sight of an interest in people, and a sympathetic, tolerant, broad-minded and compassionate point of view. You are quite idealistic, and disappointed at the lack of perfection in the world. You have a strong awareness of your own feeling as well as those of others. Friendships, affection, and love are extremely important.

Undeveloped or ignored, the negative side of the 9 expression can be very selfish and self-centered. If you do not actively involve yourself with work that benefits others, you may tend to express just the opposite characteristics. It is your role to be very involved with other people and their needs, but it may be difficult for you achieve this role. Aloofness, lack of involvement, and a lack of sensitivity mark the low road of this expression.

Your Soul Urge number is: 1

A Soul Urge number of 1 means:
Your Soul Urge is the number 1. With a Soul Urge number of 1, you want to lead and direct, to work independent of supervision, by yourself or with subordinates. You take pride in your abilities and want to be recognized for them. You may seek opportunities to display your strength and usefulness, wanting to create and originate. In your desire to manage the big picture and the main issues, you may often leave the details to others.

The positive 1 Soul Urge is Ambitious and determined, a leader seeking opportunities. There is a great deal of honesty and loyalty in this character. If you possess positive 1 Soul Urge qualities, you are very attainment oriented and driven to success. You are a loyal friend and strictly fair in your business dealings.

The negative side of the 1 Soul Urge must be avoided. A negative 1 is apt to dominate situations and people; the home, the spouse, the family and the business. Emotions aren't strong in this nature. If you possess an excess of 1 energy, you may, at times, be boastful and egotistic. You must avoid being too critical and impatient of trifles. The great need of the 1 Soul Urge is the development of friendliness, and a sincere interest in people.

Your Inner Dream number is: 8

An Inner Dream number of 8 means:
You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur.

Adara Lavigne Valdez

You entered: Adara Lavigne Valdez

There are 18 letters in your name.
Those 18 letters total to 75
There are 8 vowels and 10 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:

Welsh	Female	Catches birds.
Muslim	Female	Virgin.
Irish	Female	From the ford at the oak tree.
Hebrew	Female	Fire.
Greek	Female	Beautiful.
Arabic	Female	Virgin.

Your number is: 3

The characteristics of #3 are: Expression, verbalization, socialization, the arts, the joy of living.

The expression or destiny for #3:
An Expression of 3 produces a quest for destiny with words along a variety of lines that may include writing, speaking, singing, acting or teaching; our entertainers, writers, litigators, teachers, salesmen, and composers. You also have the destiny to sell yourself or sell just about any product that comes along. You are imaginative in your presentation, and you may have creative talents in the arts, although these are more likely to be latent. You are an optimistic person that seems ever enthusiastic about life and living. You are friendly, loving and social, and people like you because you are charming and such a good conversationalist. Your ability to communicate may often inspire others. It is your role in life to inspire and motivate; to raise the spirits of those around you.

The negative side of number 3 Expression is superficiality. You may tend to scatter your forces and simply be too easygoing. It is advisable for the negative 3 to avoid dwelling on trivial matters, especially gossip.

Your Soul Urge number is: 6

A Soul Urge number of 6 means:
With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you a able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.

The positive side of the 6 Soul Urge produces a huge capacity for responsibility; you are always there and ready to assume more than your share of the load. If you possess positive 6 Soul Urges and express them, you are known for your generosity, understanding and deep sympathetic attitude. Strong 6 energy is very giving of love, affection, and emotional support. You may have the inclination to teach or serve your community in other idealistic ways. You have natural abilities to help people. You are also likely to have artistic and creative leanings.

If you have an over-supply of 6 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative traits common to this number. With such a strong sympathetic attitude, it is easy to become too emotional. Sometimes the desires to render help can be over done, and it can become interfering and an attitude that is too protective, rather than helpful. The person with too much 6 energy often finds that people tend to take advantage of this very giving spirit. You may tend to repress your own needs so that you can cater to the demands from others. At times, there may be a tendency in this, for becoming over-loaded with such demands, and as a result become resentful.

Your Inner Dream number is: 6

An Inner Dream number of 6 means:
You dream of guiding and fostering the perfect family in the perfect home. You crave the devotion from offspring and a loving spouse. You picture yourself in the center of a successful domestic unit.

Martha Cecilia's Kristine

When I heard ABS CBN was making a TV Series of Kristine, I was excited, but wondered how well they'd bring the story to life, so I reread Martha Cecilia's brilliant novels, I thought I would give this adaptation a try, but the TV adaptation is very disappointing the characters of Margarita and Julia just made the series so cheap, and the story was twisted and corrupted to the highest level.

I have always worried that making such a masterpiece of a book into a TV Series would disappoint many. I was so right. This adaptation makes absolutely no sense.

I was looking so forward to this TV series. I absolutely loved the book and all of its characters. I thought it was an abomination. They completely destroyed a beautifully well written story. If they had kept to the book they would have had a great great series.

As such, I kind of dreaded seeing the adaption, but even as it couldn't - and doesn't - do the books justice, It goes without saying, though I'm saying it anyway, the book was so much more better than what they did in TV.

To the writers i think you never really read MC's books because if you did it will leave an imprint on your soul and you will not ruin it.

I love him but sometimes love just ain't enough

I love him and I know that, but sometimes he's getting into my nerves and I just can't hold myself anymore. I know it's not right to throw harsh words and slap it on his face but I just cant help it. I don't know when he's gonna learn that life isn't just a virtual game or any game in his psp for that matter. He already wasted a lot and was discarded many times all because of that stupid game in the net which he became so fixated about, no matter how much I persuade him not to get rapt with it still he will revert back and embrace it even he knows that I am fuming with madness already. I wanted to scream, I wanted to bawl, because I don't know what to do anymore he craves for it, It's like he was wedged to it, and regardless of what I do his senses was already affixed to it. Sounds petty but obsession and addiction can always ruin a marriage, too early to say but nevertheless an undeniable fact. I love him but sometimes love just ain't enough.

The invariable mark of a dream is to see it come true 2 (SG Trip)

The invariable mark of a dream is to see it come true

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