I hate it when i clash with my mom, I hate it when I hear her shouting and I answer back, I hate the feeling I really hate it. I honestly hate myself for causing her so much pain. I wish I could give her more, more that she would complain no more.
Im trying, trying so hard but this is all what I've got, this is all I am and this all I could ever be. BITCH.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
Night and Sleep
Night and Sleep----------------
Biography; Evelyn De Morgan (1855-1919)De Morgan began lessons at the age of 15, followed by prize-winning studies at South Kensington and Slade
Schools. Her exhibition debut was in 1876 at the Dudley Gallery and followed that with a show at the Grosvenor
Gallery, where she would exhibit regularly. In 1887 she married William De Morgan, ceramicist and associate of William
Morris, with whom she shared a deep interest in spiritualism. Her preferred subjects included sacred and allegorical
figures and scenes, and legends with a moral or social message. Together, they devised a painting method utilizing glycerine
which, though too troublesome to pursue, produced the clear, bright tones she sought. In 1916, her horror of the war led
her to mount an exhibition of 13 works for the benefit of the Red Cross.
Biography; Evelyn De Morgan (1855-1919)De Morgan began lessons at the age of 15, followed by prize-winning studies at South Kensington and Slade
Schools. Her exhibition debut was in 1876 at the Dudley Gallery and followed that with a show at the Grosvenor
Gallery, where she would exhibit regularly. In 1887 she married William De Morgan, ceramicist and associate of William
Morris, with whom she shared a deep interest in spiritualism. Her preferred subjects included sacred and allegorical
figures and scenes, and legends with a moral or social message. Together, they devised a painting method utilizing glycerine
which, though too troublesome to pursue, produced the clear, bright tones she sought. In 1916, her horror of the war led
her to mount an exhibition of 13 works for the benefit of the Red Cross.
Dawn
DawnBiography: William Adolphe BouguereauBorn in La Rochelle, France, William Adolphe Bouguereau began his studies in 1838 with Louis Sage, a student of renowned Romantic painter Ingres. After moving to Bordeaux in 1842, the artist attended the cole Municipale de Dessin et de Peinture in Bordeaux.
Bouguereau gained local acclaim as a talented portrait painter before going to Paris in 1846 to attend cole des Beaux Arts, noted for its traditional academic approach to painting. In 1850 Bougereau was awarded the coveted Prix de Rome and spent four years at the Villa Medici studying Classical and Renaissance masterpieces. The potent influence of Classical works is readily apparent in works dating after this period.
Bouguereau blended classical poses and subject matter with his own romanticized realism rendered in the highly finished style that would come to characterize his paintings. During the 1870s Bouguereau'sfocus shifted from historical and genre scenes to lighter, lyrical mythological subjects. Highly regarded by his contemporaries, Bouguereau was awarded numerous state commissions and, at the height of his career, taught at the Academie Julian and the cole des Beaux Arts.
Throughout his lifetime, Bouguereau staunchly defended the academic tradition of painting and was viewed as an obstructionist by the new generation of painters who were experimenting with Impressionism. While immensely popular during his lifetime, Bouguereau's reputation suffered with the advent of the modernists who viewed his work as mediocre and overly sentimental. Recent exhibitions have focused attention on the contribution of mid-19th century artists and Bouguereau's work has enjoyed a resurgence in popularity.
Bouguereau gained local acclaim as a talented portrait painter before going to Paris in 1846 to attend cole des Beaux Arts, noted for its traditional academic approach to painting. In 1850 Bougereau was awarded the coveted Prix de Rome and spent four years at the Villa Medici studying Classical and Renaissance masterpieces. The potent influence of Classical works is readily apparent in works dating after this period.
Bouguereau blended classical poses and subject matter with his own romanticized realism rendered in the highly finished style that would come to characterize his paintings. During the 1870s Bouguereau'sfocus shifted from historical and genre scenes to lighter, lyrical mythological subjects. Highly regarded by his contemporaries, Bouguereau was awarded numerous state commissions and, at the height of his career, taught at the Academie Julian and the cole des Beaux Arts.
Throughout his lifetime, Bouguereau staunchly defended the academic tradition of painting and was viewed as an obstructionist by the new generation of painters who were experimenting with Impressionism. While immensely popular during his lifetime, Bouguereau's reputation suffered with the advent of the modernists who viewed his work as mediocre and overly sentimental. Recent exhibitions have focused attention on the contribution of mid-19th century artists and Bouguereau's work has enjoyed a resurgence in popularity.
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Name: Jonnie Rose JopsonDate: 2/20/2009Colorgenics Number: 12436507
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You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.
Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.
You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.
Name: Jonnie Rose JopsonDate: 2/20/2009Colorgenics Number: 12436507
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You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.
Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.
You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.
Jace Washington Michiko Valdez
You entered: Jace Washington Michiko Valdez
There are 27 letters in your name.Those 27 letters total to 125There are 10 vowels and 17 consonants in your name. What your first name means:
Greek
Male
Variant of Jason: a healing.
Your number is: 8
The characteristics of #8 are: Practical endeavors, status oriented, power-seeking, high-material goals.
The expression or destiny for #8:Your Expression is represented by the number 8. The 8 Expression is well-equipped in a managerial sense. You have outstanding organizational and administrative capabilities. You have the potential for considerable achievement in business or other powerful positions. You can expect to receive the financial and material rewards. You have the skill and abilities to establish or operate a business with great efficiency. You have good judgment when it comes to money and commercial matters, and you understand how to build and accumulate material wealth. Much of your success (or lack of it) may come due to your ability (or inability) to judge character. With the number 8 Expression, you exercise sound judgment in most of your affairs; you are realistic and practical in your approach to business matters.
The positive 8 Expression produces individuals that are very ambitious and goal-oriented. If the 8 energy is not in excess in your makeup, you will no doubt express these traits to some extent. No one has any more energy that a person with the 8 Expression who has a plan laid and is starting to work. No one has any more self-confidence, either. If you are expressing the positive qualities of 8, you are an outstanding manager because you can plan, initiate, and complete projects; you are very dependable and determined.
As it always happens, there can be too much of a good thing. If you have too much of the 8 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes. A negative 8 can be very rigid and stubborn. Ambition sometimes has a way of becoming over-ambition, and you may express an unreasonable impatience with the lack of progress. If your negative side is showing, you may be too exacting, both of yourself and of others. Sometimes this can even becomes a case of intolerance.
The number 8 is very materialistic and also very desirous of status and power. Neither of these drives are inherently negative unless they are taken to an extreme. You must avoid the tendency to strain after money, material matters, status, or power, to the detriment of the other important factors in your life.
Your Soul Urge number is: 7
A Soul Urge number of 7 means: With a number 7 Soul Urge you are very fond of reading, and retreating to periods of being alone and away from the disruptions of the outer world. You like to dream and develop you idealistic understandings, to study and analyze, to gain knowledge and wisdom. You may be too laid back and withdrawn to really succeed in the business world, and you will be much more comfortable in circumstances that are tolerant of your reserve, your analytical approach, and your desire to use your mind rather than your physical being.
You are very timid around people that you don't know very well, so much so at times that casual conversation and social situations can be strained. You tend to repress your emotions to the extend that some people have a good bit of difficult understanding you. You tend to be very selective with friends and you don't easily adapt to new environments or to new people very quickly.
The negative traits of the 7 include becoming too much the introvert and isolated from others.
Your Inner Dream number is: 1
An Inner Dream number of 1 means: You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
I hate myself
How I hated myself so much.
So much that I couldn't even breath, how Im so irritated of the person I am.
So much that I couldn't even breath, how Im so irritated of the person I am.
Bella Swan
Surely it was a good way to die, in the place of someone else, someone I loved. Noble, even. That ought to count for something.Bella Swan, Twilight, Preface, p.1
When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.Bella Swan, Twilight, Preface, p.1
My primary motivation behind buying a car, despite the scarcity of my funds, was that I refused to be driven around town in a car with red and blue lights on top. Nothing slows down traffic like a cop.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.5
I do a good job of blocking painful, unnecessary things from my memory.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.6
The thing, I thought to myself… it had possibilities — as a nickname, at the very least.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.7
It was nice to be alone, not to have to smile and look pleased; a relief to stare dejectedly out the window at the sheeting rain and let just a few tears escape.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.9
Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.11
Forks was literally my personal hell on Earth.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.25
I was sure, though, in the instant our eyes met, that he didn’t look harsh or unfriendly as he had the last time I’d seen him. He looked merely curious again, unsatisfied in some way.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.41
His fingers were ice-cold, like he’d been holding them in a snowdrift before class. But that wasn’t why I jerked my hand away so quickly. When he touched me, it stung my hand as if an electric current had passed through us.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.45
I vividly remembered the flat black color of his eyes the last time he’d glared at me — the color was striking against the background of his pale skin and his auburn hair. Today, his eyes were a completely different color: a strange ocher, darker than butterscotch, but with the same golden tone.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.46
Hasn’t anyone ever told you? Life isn’t fair.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.49
I was in disbelief that I’d just explained my dreary life to this bizarre, beautiful boy who may or may not despise me.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.50
Edward Cullen was leaning against the front door of the Volvo, three cars down from me, and staring intently in my direction.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.52
I stared straight ahead as I passed the Volvo, but from a peripheral peek, I would swear I saw him laughing.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.52
In a lot of ways, living with Charlie was like having my own place, and I found myself reveling in the aloneness instead of being lonely.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54
If I was being honest with myself, I knew I was eager to get to school because I would see Edward Cullen. And that was very, very stupid.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54
Clearly, today was going to be nightmarish.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54
Whatever the reason, Mike’s puppy dog behavior and Eric’s apparent rivalry with him were disconcerting. I wasn’t sure if I didn’t prefer being ignored.Bella Swan, Twilight,Chapter 3, p.55
My throat suddenly felt tight. I wasn’t used to being taken care of, and Charlie’s unspoken concern caught me by surprise.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54
Edward Cullen was standing four cars down from me, staring at me in horror. His face stood out from a sea of faces, all frozen in the same mask of shock.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.56
Just before I heard the shattering crunch of the van folding around the truck bed, something hit me, hard, but not from the direction I was expecting.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.56
A low oath made me aware that someone was with me, and the voice was impossible not to recognize. Two long, white hands shot out protectively in front of me, and the van shuddered to a stop a foot from my face, the large hands fitting providentially into a deep dent in the side of the van’s body.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.56
How did you get over here so fast?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.57
He unleashed the full, devastating power of his eyes on me, as if trying to communicate something crucial.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.58
When they’d lifted me away from the car, I had seen the deep dent in the tan car’s bumper — a very distinct dent that fit the contours of Edward’s shoulders… as if he had braced himself against the car with enough force to damage the metal frame…Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.59
I tried to think of a logical solution that could explain what I had just seen — a solution that excluded the assumption that I was insane.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.59
How come you aren’t strapped to a gurney like the rest of us?Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.61
I don’t like to lie – so there’d better be a good reason why I’m doing it.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.65
I was positive that Edward’s defensive behavior in the hall was a confirmation of the bizarre things I still could hardly believe I’d witnessed.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.66
I was consumed by the mystery Edward presented. And more than a little obsessed by Edward himself.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.67
That was the first night I dreamed of Edward Cullen.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.67
I wondered to myself why no one else had seen him standing so far away, before he was suddenly, impossibly saving my life. With chagrin, I realized the probable cause — no one else was as aware of Edward as I always was. No one else watched him the way I did. How pitiful.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.69
He wished he hadn’t pulled me from the path of Tyler’s van — there was no other conclusion I could come to.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.70
watched as his golden eyes grew perceptibly darker day by day. But in class I gave no more notice that he existed than he showed toward me. I was miserable.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.70
As always, I was electrically aware of Edward sitting close enough to touch, as distant as if he were merely an invention of my imagination.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.72
I didn’t want to get into the safety hazards that dancing presented, so I quickly made new plans.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.73
I sighed and opened my eyes. And Edward was staring at me curiously, that same, familiar edge of frustration even more distinct now in his black eyes.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.73
In his rearview mirror, Edward’s eyes were on me. He was unquestionably shaking with laughter, as if he’d heard every word Tyler had said. My foot itched toward the gas pedal… one little bump wouldn’t hurt any of them, just that glossy silver paint job. I revved the engine.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.78
He must see how absorbed I was by him; he must not want to lead me on… so we couldn’t even be friends… because he wasn’t interested in me at all.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.79
I wasn’t interesting. And he was. Interesting… and brilliant… and mysterious… and perfect… and beautiful… and possibly able to lift full-sized vans with one hand.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.79
I tried to be crafty as I hid my horror.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.80
I thought you were supposed to be pretending I don’t exist, not irritating me to death.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
It felt like the heat of my anger should physically burn him, but he only seemed more amused.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
So you are trying to irritate me to death? Since Tyler’s van didn’t do the job?Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
My palms tingled — I wanted so badly to hit something. I was surprised at myself. I was usually a nonviolent person.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
Do you have a multiple personality disorder?Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
Are you trying to be funny?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.83
Stupid, shiny Volvo owner.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.83
It was difficult to believe that I hadn’t just imagined what Edward had said, and the way his eyes had looked. Maybe it was just a very convincing dream that I’d confused with reality. That seemed more probable than that I really appealed to him on any level.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.86
It was hard to believe that someone so beautiful could be real. I was afraid that he might disappear in a sudden puff of smoke, and I would wake up.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.87
I’m trying to figure out what you are.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.89
I had been vacillating during the last month between Bruce Wayne and Peter Parker. There was no way I was going to own up to that.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.89
I can’t imagine why that would be frustrating at all — just because someone refuses to tell you what they’re thinking, even if all the while they’re making cryptic little remarks specifically designed to keep you up at night wondering what they could possibly mean… now, why would that be frustrating?Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.90
I just wondered… if you could warn me beforehand the next time you decide to ignore me for my own good. Just so I’m prepared.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.91
When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.Bella Swan, Twilight, Preface, p.1
My primary motivation behind buying a car, despite the scarcity of my funds, was that I refused to be driven around town in a car with red and blue lights on top. Nothing slows down traffic like a cop.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.5
I do a good job of blocking painful, unnecessary things from my memory.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.6
The thing, I thought to myself… it had possibilities — as a nickname, at the very least.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.7
It was nice to be alone, not to have to smile and look pleased; a relief to stare dejectedly out the window at the sheeting rain and let just a few tears escape.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.9
Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.11
Forks was literally my personal hell on Earth.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.25
I was sure, though, in the instant our eyes met, that he didn’t look harsh or unfriendly as he had the last time I’d seen him. He looked merely curious again, unsatisfied in some way.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.41
His fingers were ice-cold, like he’d been holding them in a snowdrift before class. But that wasn’t why I jerked my hand away so quickly. When he touched me, it stung my hand as if an electric current had passed through us.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.45
I vividly remembered the flat black color of his eyes the last time he’d glared at me — the color was striking against the background of his pale skin and his auburn hair. Today, his eyes were a completely different color: a strange ocher, darker than butterscotch, but with the same golden tone.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.46
Hasn’t anyone ever told you? Life isn’t fair.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.49
I was in disbelief that I’d just explained my dreary life to this bizarre, beautiful boy who may or may not despise me.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.50
Edward Cullen was leaning against the front door of the Volvo, three cars down from me, and staring intently in my direction.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.52
I stared straight ahead as I passed the Volvo, but from a peripheral peek, I would swear I saw him laughing.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.52
In a lot of ways, living with Charlie was like having my own place, and I found myself reveling in the aloneness instead of being lonely.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54
If I was being honest with myself, I knew I was eager to get to school because I would see Edward Cullen. And that was very, very stupid.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54
Clearly, today was going to be nightmarish.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54
Whatever the reason, Mike’s puppy dog behavior and Eric’s apparent rivalry with him were disconcerting. I wasn’t sure if I didn’t prefer being ignored.Bella Swan, Twilight,Chapter 3, p.55
My throat suddenly felt tight. I wasn’t used to being taken care of, and Charlie’s unspoken concern caught me by surprise.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54
Edward Cullen was standing four cars down from me, staring at me in horror. His face stood out from a sea of faces, all frozen in the same mask of shock.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.56
Just before I heard the shattering crunch of the van folding around the truck bed, something hit me, hard, but not from the direction I was expecting.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.56
A low oath made me aware that someone was with me, and the voice was impossible not to recognize. Two long, white hands shot out protectively in front of me, and the van shuddered to a stop a foot from my face, the large hands fitting providentially into a deep dent in the side of the van’s body.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.56
How did you get over here so fast?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.57
He unleashed the full, devastating power of his eyes on me, as if trying to communicate something crucial.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.58
When they’d lifted me away from the car, I had seen the deep dent in the tan car’s bumper — a very distinct dent that fit the contours of Edward’s shoulders… as if he had braced himself against the car with enough force to damage the metal frame…Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.59
I tried to think of a logical solution that could explain what I had just seen — a solution that excluded the assumption that I was insane.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.59
How come you aren’t strapped to a gurney like the rest of us?Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.61
I don’t like to lie – so there’d better be a good reason why I’m doing it.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.65
I was positive that Edward’s defensive behavior in the hall was a confirmation of the bizarre things I still could hardly believe I’d witnessed.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.66
I was consumed by the mystery Edward presented. And more than a little obsessed by Edward himself.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.67
That was the first night I dreamed of Edward Cullen.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.67
I wondered to myself why no one else had seen him standing so far away, before he was suddenly, impossibly saving my life. With chagrin, I realized the probable cause — no one else was as aware of Edward as I always was. No one else watched him the way I did. How pitiful.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.69
He wished he hadn’t pulled me from the path of Tyler’s van — there was no other conclusion I could come to.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.70
watched as his golden eyes grew perceptibly darker day by day. But in class I gave no more notice that he existed than he showed toward me. I was miserable.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.70
As always, I was electrically aware of Edward sitting close enough to touch, as distant as if he were merely an invention of my imagination.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.72
I didn’t want to get into the safety hazards that dancing presented, so I quickly made new plans.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.73
I sighed and opened my eyes. And Edward was staring at me curiously, that same, familiar edge of frustration even more distinct now in his black eyes.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.73
In his rearview mirror, Edward’s eyes were on me. He was unquestionably shaking with laughter, as if he’d heard every word Tyler had said. My foot itched toward the gas pedal… one little bump wouldn’t hurt any of them, just that glossy silver paint job. I revved the engine.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.78
He must see how absorbed I was by him; he must not want to lead me on… so we couldn’t even be friends… because he wasn’t interested in me at all.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.79
I wasn’t interesting. And he was. Interesting… and brilliant… and mysterious… and perfect… and beautiful… and possibly able to lift full-sized vans with one hand.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.79
I tried to be crafty as I hid my horror.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.80
I thought you were supposed to be pretending I don’t exist, not irritating me to death.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
It felt like the heat of my anger should physically burn him, but he only seemed more amused.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
So you are trying to irritate me to death? Since Tyler’s van didn’t do the job?Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
My palms tingled — I wanted so badly to hit something. I was surprised at myself. I was usually a nonviolent person.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
Do you have a multiple personality disorder?Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
Are you trying to be funny?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.83
Stupid, shiny Volvo owner.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.83
It was difficult to believe that I hadn’t just imagined what Edward had said, and the way his eyes had looked. Maybe it was just a very convincing dream that I’d confused with reality. That seemed more probable than that I really appealed to him on any level.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.86
It was hard to believe that someone so beautiful could be real. I was afraid that he might disappear in a sudden puff of smoke, and I would wake up.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.87
I’m trying to figure out what you are.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.89
I had been vacillating during the last month between Bruce Wayne and Peter Parker. There was no way I was going to own up to that.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.89
I can’t imagine why that would be frustrating at all — just because someone refuses to tell you what they’re thinking, even if all the while they’re making cryptic little remarks specifically designed to keep you up at night wondering what they could possibly mean… now, why would that be frustrating?Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.90
I just wondered… if you could warn me beforehand the next time you decide to ignore me for my own good. Just so I’m prepared.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.91
Edward Cullen
I’m just going to do what I want now, and let the chips fall where they may.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.88
It makes me… anxious… to be away from you.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.188
People are predictable. But you… you never do what I expect. You always take me by surprise.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.245
It’s too easy to be myself with you.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.262
To me, it was like you were some kind of demon, summoned straight from my own personal hell to ruin me.Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.269
To me, it was like you were some kind of demon, summoned straight from my own personal hell to ruin me.Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.269
You’re interesting when you sleep. You talk.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.293
I wrestled all night, while watching you sleep, with the chasm between what I knew was right, moral, ethical, and what I wanted. I knew that if I continued to ignore you as I should, or if I left for a few years, till you were gone, that someday you would say yes to Mike, or someone like him. It made me angry.Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.303
Just because I’m resisting the wine doesn’t mean I can’t appreciate the bouquet.Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.306
You don’t realize how incredibly breakable you are. I can never, never afford to lose any kind of control when I’m with you.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.310
I may not be a human, but I am a man.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.311
Your hair looks like a haystack… but I like it.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.312
You are so absurd.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.319
Shall I explain how you are tempting me?
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.319
What am I going to do with you? Yesterday I kiss you, and you attack me! Today you pass out on me!Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.319
And you’re worried, not because you’re headed to meet a houseful of vampires, but because you think those vampires won’t approve of you, correct?
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.320
You inspired this one.Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.326
infuriate myself. The way I can’t seem to keep from putting you in danger. My very existence puts you at risk. Sometimes I truly hate myself.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.365
I love you. It’s a poor excuse for what I’m doing, but it’s still true.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.366
You, at least, made an effort. You got up in the morning, tried to be normal for Charlie, followed the pattern of your life. When I wasn’t actively tracking, I was… totally useless. I couldn’t be around my family—I couldn’t be around anyone. I’m embarrassed to admit that I more or less curled up into a ball and let the misery have me. It was much more pathetic than hearing voices. And, of course, you know I do that, too.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.528
You’re wounding my ego, Bella. I just proposed to you, and you think it’s a joke.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.540
Well, I’m nearly a hundred and ten. It’s time I settled down.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.540
Because she’d rather you became one of the eternal damned than get married.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.541
So eager for eternal damnation.Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.546
You, at least, made an effort. You got up in the morning, tried to be normal for Charlie, followed the pattern of your life. When I wasn’t actively tracking, I was… totally useless. I couldn’t be around my family—I couldn’t be around anyone. I’m embarrassed to admit that I more or less curled up into a ball and let the misery have me. It was much more pathetic than hearing voices. And, of course, you know I do that, too.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.528
You’re wounding my ego, Bella. I just proposed to you, and you think it’s a joke.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.540
Well, I’m nearly a hundred and ten. It’s time I settled down.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.540
Because she’d rather you became one of the eternal damned than get married.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.541
So eager for eternal damnation.Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.546
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.88
It makes me… anxious… to be away from you.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.188
People are predictable. But you… you never do what I expect. You always take me by surprise.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.245
It’s too easy to be myself with you.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.262
To me, it was like you were some kind of demon, summoned straight from my own personal hell to ruin me.Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.269
To me, it was like you were some kind of demon, summoned straight from my own personal hell to ruin me.Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.269
You’re interesting when you sleep. You talk.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.293
I wrestled all night, while watching you sleep, with the chasm between what I knew was right, moral, ethical, and what I wanted. I knew that if I continued to ignore you as I should, or if I left for a few years, till you were gone, that someday you would say yes to Mike, or someone like him. It made me angry.Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.303
Just because I’m resisting the wine doesn’t mean I can’t appreciate the bouquet.Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.306
You don’t realize how incredibly breakable you are. I can never, never afford to lose any kind of control when I’m with you.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.310
I may not be a human, but I am a man.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.311
Your hair looks like a haystack… but I like it.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.312
You are so absurd.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.319
Shall I explain how you are tempting me?
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.319
What am I going to do with you? Yesterday I kiss you, and you attack me! Today you pass out on me!Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.319
And you’re worried, not because you’re headed to meet a houseful of vampires, but because you think those vampires won’t approve of you, correct?
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.320
You inspired this one.Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.326
infuriate myself. The way I can’t seem to keep from putting you in danger. My very existence puts you at risk. Sometimes I truly hate myself.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.365
I love you. It’s a poor excuse for what I’m doing, but it’s still true.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.366
You, at least, made an effort. You got up in the morning, tried to be normal for Charlie, followed the pattern of your life. When I wasn’t actively tracking, I was… totally useless. I couldn’t be around my family—I couldn’t be around anyone. I’m embarrassed to admit that I more or less curled up into a ball and let the misery have me. It was much more pathetic than hearing voices. And, of course, you know I do that, too.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.528
You’re wounding my ego, Bella. I just proposed to you, and you think it’s a joke.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.540
Well, I’m nearly a hundred and ten. It’s time I settled down.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.540
Because she’d rather you became one of the eternal damned than get married.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.541
So eager for eternal damnation.Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.546
You, at least, made an effort. You got up in the morning, tried to be normal for Charlie, followed the pattern of your life. When I wasn’t actively tracking, I was… totally useless. I couldn’t be around my family—I couldn’t be around anyone. I’m embarrassed to admit that I more or less curled up into a ball and let the misery have me. It was much more pathetic than hearing voices. And, of course, you know I do that, too.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.528
You’re wounding my ego, Bella. I just proposed to you, and you think it’s a joke.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.540
Well, I’m nearly a hundred and ten. It’s time I settled down.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.540
Because she’d rather you became one of the eternal damned than get married.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.541
So eager for eternal damnation.Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.546
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